I have a jam packed weekend this week so I figured I’d try to do a quick (yeah, right) post about what’s been on my mind this week.  How am I going to survive the weekend while sticking to the new habits I’ve formed??  I mean, this has seriously been stressing me out!  I’ve worked all week with a JUMBO bag of Starburst that my coworker actually bought for ME sitting right behind me…and I haven’t eaten one…honestly, not one..I’m totally not even tempted by those stupid yellow and orange ones, but the pinks and reds have been calling my name all week.  I’ve been tempted, okay, really tempted, I’ve even picked one up a time or two when no one was around, but I put them back.  It’s not even that it’s a huge deal to eat one little Starburst, it’s just the point that it’s always been my MO that if I eat one, I eat 20…and that I have a problem with.  So I figure, why bother, will it be good?  Yeah, of course, but I have a wedding tomorrow, plus it’s Mother’s Day on Sunday so I know my eating is going to suffer a bit anyway.  I’d rather save my straying for then!

I’ve really been working on trying to make better choices all across the board.  Especially when it comes to eating.  Even when I went to a friend’s house last week I was tempted. And minus an adult beverage (or maybe two…ummm, don’t judge me, it was Cinco de Mayo, you know) I kept my eating clean.  Thankfully she eats pretty healthy also so she had some good options like some AMAZING homemade guacamole, and it was a little tempting to grab a handful of chips to dip with but instead I dipped with carrots, mushrooms, and celery, and not only did it taste just as good, I felt good knowing that I wasn’t depriving myself and I was making a healthier choice.  I let myself have a couple of pieces of cheese, but I was fine with that because it was good cheese, not processed Velveeta and I’ve cut virtually all dairy out of my diet anyway, so a couple of pieces didn’t hurt anyone. 

The point is I no longer feel like I’m on a “diet”.  I eat this way because I want to and I’ve really come to enjoy it. I feel better when I eat better.  Plain and simple.  I know I’ll eat my normal meals before the wedding and I’ll do my best to choose the healthiest items on the buffet.  And I’ll do the same on Mother’s Day.  This concerns me a little bit more since my Stepdad has already informed me that instead of cooking this year he is ordering take out from a couple of our favorite places…I’ll just try and make the healthiest choices.  If I get a chance to cook at all on Sunday morning, I actually plan on bringing a meal of my own to my parent’s house just in case.  Hopfully no one will be offended, but again, this is how I eat now.  My healthy choices.  It’s not for everyone.  They don’t have to understand.

While eating clean has become a priority for me, I also believe in moderation.  I haven’t really done a “cheat meal” in a long time.  But I also don’t really feel the need to “cheat” because again….not on a diet…way of life here….that being said, since I am not on a diet (sorry to be such a repeater), if I have an overwhelming urge to eat something that’s not healthy or clean, then I’m going to eat it.  And I’m not going to get upset about it.  It’s my opinion that “cheating”, and then feeling guilty afterwards only leads to an unhealthy cycle.  If I eat unclean, I’ll just be sure that my next meal is as clean as a whistle!  Have a great weekend!

Happy Mother’s Day to all you selfless mother’s out there…I wish you a perfect day of love and relaxation!

Thanks for reading,
k