I’m moving on from my rant yesterday.  When I started this journey I knew that I would have good days and bad days.  I’m making the decision right now to get over the bad ones!  I need to stop dwelling on poor workouts and wishing I would have pushed myself harder, etc.  There is nothing I can do about it.  I mentioned on Fb (which copied to my Twitter, b/c I suck at Twitter and can’t figure out how to make it stop) that I had to take a couple of days off starting tonight and I was getting anxiety about it.  I’m making the decision to get over that anxiety also.  I have to take the time off, there’s nothing I can do about it so I just need to deal and move on.  


My coworker was kind enough to pick some things up for me at lunch today at Wegman’s since we have ZERO awesome grocery stores around here.  Don’t even get me started.  But I’d found a recipe for healthy chocolate chip cookies that I’ve been dying to really clean up and I think I’ll take my forced day off as an opportunity to let my tiny little sous chef’s help me do so!  They love cooking so much that I had to ban them from doing so together.  They were allowed to switch off each week and pick a Jamie Eason protein bar flavor each Sunday and help….the two of them together and fighting over every last teaspoon had to end!


I read somewhere, The Gracious Pantry, if memory serves me right the line, “My blog is my happy place”.  I didn’t really understand but I totally do now.  I wasn’t exactly sure what direction I wanted to take this blog in at first.  I just started it on a whim on day  because I had been thinking of ways to hold myself accountable and document this new challenge but assumed I’d just abandon it once the novelty wore off like I do with most things.  But I love it.  I have practically no followers.  I really don’t know if anyone actually reads it.  No one posts any comments and I have barely any FB or Twitter followers.  I really don’t give a crap.  I didn’t care at all when I first started, then I cared for a little because I loved the camaraderie I’d been seeing between all these fitness bloggers and it was so motivating and inspirational, and it still is, honestly.  But I really get it.  I just love the blogging, the writing, the taking pictures, it just makes me happy!  My blog is my happy place and I do it for me…for MY mental health, not my husband, not my kids, not my job..just ME!


I’ve only been here about a month or so but it feels like I’ve been doing it way longer!  It really hit me last night when I wrote this big post whining and complaining and got home and had a much better workout than I had been and felt my mood change almost instantly just getting it off of my chest.  


I’m going to be excited about my mini-exercise vacation and I’ve made the following goals to accomplish while I’m NOT working out…


- Bake the clean chocolate chip cookies with my kids
- Clean out our disaster area basement 
- Maybe make it to a friend’s bday party if possible
- Dig out the fancy serveware I just remembered I had to try and take nicer pics this week
- Get to the supermarket (the pantry is basically empty)
- Bulk cook my ass off