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I feel so “off” this week. For months now I have had the same rituals on the weekends, the most important one being my food prep, usually on a Sunday. Even though it usually takes up at least 3 hours of cooking, cleaning, washing dishes and rearranging the fridge to try and fit it all, it is necessary. I didn’t get to cook this weekend. Not at all. It’s giving me terrible anxiety and I’m just totally unprepared for the week. I was finally able to cook some turkey last night and hope I can get something else made tonight to get me through the week. That was the bad news.
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| The birthday girl |
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The good news, well, kind of good news is that my beautiful princess G celebrated her 7th birthday this weekend! It’s was so emotional and bittersweet for me. She is headed to first grade next week and as she’s bouncing out of the car and into school, Mom will be sitting in the car, fighting back the tears and wondering where the time went. I know there are so many Mom’s out there struggling with the same feelings this time of year. I’m so proud of her and love watching her grow but at the same time I’m desperately searching for a way to freeze her right here, right now. Any ideas? I’m open to suggestions.
To add to all this my son, my baby is starting preschool this year! Now that is really going to hurt!
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| Little b |
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I feel so guilty sometimes with all the time I now spend cooking and working out and blogging, etc. I wonder if I’ll look back one day and wish I had spent all that extra time with them. I tell myself that I do it for them. For me, but for them. I need to take care of myself, keep myself healthy so that I can be around for a long time to drive them crazy. I want them to learn from my good habits, I want to teach them by example, but I’m constantly second guessing if that’s the honest truth or if I just tell myself that to justify my actions. If I’m just being selfish worrying about myself when I should be focusing less on me and more on them. #momproblems, I guess!
I’m not posting looking for compliments on my mothering abilities, etc. but I would love to hear how you handle these kinds of emotions or if you have any tips on dealing with the guilt? I would really appreciate any advice you may have for me!
I hope all you Mommas out there somehow make it through “back to school” with your heart in one piece, something tells me I won’t be so lucky!!
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oh you are a great mom! Your kids seem so happy and it is all about balance!
Thanks, Alex, and yes, I think so too, just need to reassure myself sometimes, I guess!
Make that the free moments you do have are with them. They understand and when they get older will show you. Don’t worry!
I sure do try!! Thanks so much
I just have a family of two right now (my boyfriend and I) and unfortunately I do not have any advice for you on dealing with guilt. But I do want to tell you, that you have a super gorgeous family and I would love to be in your shoes in the (near?!) future. xo.
Lol, thank you so much, that is really sweet!! xo
Girl, it’s allllll normal! I said goodbye to a 1st grader and Kindergartener!!! Both kids so big and independent! I feel like my purpose is slowly slipping away! BUT…it is such a reward to watch happy, well adjusted children walk into a new adventure with confidence! That is my reminder of a job well done. We do need things to keep ourselves happy and healthy as a mommy. I’m sure you balance it all and that is most important. They will admire and learn from your hard work. I feel guilty for going back to school at age 29 but I know it is to better our future. I hope they admire my courage and and hard work one day! you are on a great track. Just the fact that you worry about this at all shows that you care for and love them deeply!
Wow, you just summed it all up! Good for you for going back to school!!! Thank you for your comment
Your kids are too cute.
I am struggling to figure out how to balance a full time job, night classes, homework, marathon training, friend & family time, and still find time to sleep.
I personally justify blogging because even though it is a lot of work it is also me time and it makes me happy.
If you enjoy all the cooking, working out, and blogging I say go for it. Plus you are setting a great positive, healthy role model for them. I wish I had more of that growing up.
Thank you Abby! You have quite the full plate yourself
I definitely struggle with feeling bad when I’m not spending every second with my kids. But you definitely need balance and it is important to role model that to them! Being healthy and happy are so important so that every second you do spend with them you are really present!
Jess, you’re right but sometimes the guilt piles up and is so hard! Thanks for your comment, hang in there too